Isn't it "funny" how suddenly
It is perfectly fine to destroy community?
Isn't it "funny" how easily
The meaning of love has been twisted?
Isn't it "funny" how successfully
We have been convinced to cover our faces,
Our identities, our expressions,
Wherever we go?
Isn't it "funny" how thoroughly
Some Christians have pushed aside the Great Commission
As if a not-so-novel sickness changes the unchangeable,
The Word of God?
It's all so "funny" that my heart is shriveling.
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The Great Commission:
"Then Jesus came to them and said, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age” (Matthew 28:18-20, emphasis mine).
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This poem is probably terrible - I'm not the biggest fan of free verse, let alone can write it well - but it's a raw and true reflection of the despair I struggle with on a daily basis, and the words just kind of spilled out of me last night.
I'm not proud of my despair. God instructs us to not let our hearts be troubled, but I allow my circumstances to overwhelm me way too often.
I almost didn't publish this because of the deep hurt it reflects, and because I know I'm guilty of downgrading the importance of the Great Commission due to more personal excuses than our nationwide/global circumstances. I'm afraid of being hypocritical; I'm afraid of acting bitter. So, ideally, I should have shared a simple piece about trusting God and His unwavering control, about how everything works together for good for those who love the Lord. To be honest, though, that wasn't how I was feeling last night, so I wanted to take a moment to be genuine and just share what came out of my heart even if inspiring isn't the first word I would use to describe what I've written.
Covid and practices or regulations associated with it are a controversial topic in Christian circles. I do my best to understand where people who disagree with me are coming from biblically, so if that's you, all I'm asking is if you could try to understand where I'm coming from biblically too. We don't have to stand down from what we believe to step into each other's shoes.
If you struggle with the same despair I do, now you know you're not the only one.
The Lord's Truly,
oh girl <3 this is beautiful. So so beautiful. I love how raw this is. <3 don't be afraid to be raw and real.
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Thank you so much, Brooke. <3 I'm so glad you liked it, and I'm so grateful for the encouragement. I needed to hear it tbh <3
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ReplyDeleteLove you too. <3 Thank YOU for reading.
DeleteI completely understand your despair. Thanks for sharing! <3
ReplyDeleteThank you for reading, Skye! <33
Delete"I'm afraid of being hypocritical; I'm afraid of acting bitter." <--- one of the most relatable sentences EVER! It's hard, and I sometimes despair, too. <3 We'll get through this. He is bigger than all of this.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you could find something to relate to, Clare! (And I'm sorry I took so long to respond lol.) It's definitely hard, but you're so right. We'll get through this. And God is greater <3
DeleteI agree 100%. I've never worn a mask once, I've thrown dozens of parties and hosted dozens of people. I went on a month long road trip to see friends and grandparents. I have not allowed the government to define for me what it means to love people.
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That's AWESOME, Keturah! I'm forced to wear the mask at school, and I must say I'm not as bold as you in places where I know I could get away with it, but it's so inspiring to hear that you're still just as much involved in community and family as before COVID happened. Thank you so much for reading!!
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